I just can't quit listening to 'Fuhen' over and over again!! Aaargh!! The ending song of 'Samurai 7' is way too good to tear your ears away from...

Oh, hey guys, guess what? I've watched the befamed 'Ghost in the Shell: Stand Alone Complex' as well as its '2nd GIG'! Whoah...I didn't know my love for machines and human-robots could grow any deeper than after watching 'Gundam Seed Destiny' and 'Appleseed'! Man, Tachikomas are just *so* cute...

And, referring to my 2nd previous post before this, and also the tags made by someone who calls herself '4e9', actually I think you've got it wrong. All wrong. When I was writing that depressed post I wasn't *at all* thinking about my life in school. Hate to admit it, but I've not thought much about my secondary school pals ever since I've started working. And the people that I was attempting to reach out to, they weren't in the least my pri/sec sch friends either. It was my colleagues. And by the way, whoever it was, I assume you're representing the whole class population since you used the name '4e9'. Well, but anyway your tags pulled me back to my past...and made me realize how much I've changed in just these 1-2 months of being in the working world. I daresay I'm different now than what I was when I was just still a student. And also, anyway, I've always known what you've told me, that my friends hate me for my constant lying. I've always known. So the tags really didn't make much of an impact on me, other than that finally, *finally*, someone put them in words and stung my face with it for me to confirm my thoughts with that of reality.

Oookay, now back to happy mood...'heihachi' is my new AsiaSoft account ID, and along with it 'aishiteruto' being my new 'Maple Story' account ID! I couldn't resist naming myself after the great Heihachi-sama from 'Samurai 7'! Three cheers for the technical-smart samurai, Hayashida Heihachi!

'Matantei Loki Ragnarok' is *way* cool too! The BGM and op/ed especially, not forgetting that the anime is a brilliant mix of mythology, action, and good-looking characters! 'Rakuen no Tobira' and 'Believe in Heaven' are simply such sexy songs...suited to the actually-sexy Loki too!

Heeeh...well, gotta go eat cereal and iron my clothes now. I've had a lot of fun typing out this post. And also having changed my blog template! How could I have forgotten to mention that earlier! Hope you like this new template of the orange mushroom from 'Maple Story'! This template was what moved me to create a 'Maple Story' account today...haha...now I'm on my way to be in league with my colleagues who've been playing the game for ages!

Oh. Right. Yesterday my mum chased me outta the house when I told her I was going to work. And when I reached home, my 2nd sis greets me with the news that my mum wants to see my bank book. Bet she wants to check how much's my pay. For goodness's sake, I don't care about my pay! I mean, so what if she can provide me with all the money and food - can she provide me with the working experience that I'm receiving by going to work? Can she? By forcing me to stay at home, can she give me the challenge of the working world? C'mon man...fact is she can't.

Okay...rightie...I really have been enjoying my time at work. With new people coming in and what not, I feel more than happy to be staying on for as long as I can! :) Yup yup. No one's gonna stop me from going to work.

I can't wait for my friend to go through 2nd interview with Mr Kelvin! Yay!

And, by the way, I feel hell happy for having been married to MagSTORM for more than a month now. Haha! (^o^)

Right now, what I really need is someone to listen patiently to me. Listen to my cries of confusion. Lend me his/her shoulder. To cry on. And then let me hug him/her until I feel secure enough to let go and stand on my own again. That's what I need the most. A person understands and knows what I'm talking about. And be kind enough to give me a long hug in return.

I'm not being demanding, am I? 'Cos that really is what I need the most at this moment. I'm always there if anyone wants those things of me, but so far no one has ever been there for me. Right now when I need it, no one is here for me.

I really do have no real friends to seek for, do I?

I can't be like how I've always been anymore. I used to be able to shoulder my own problems, hold myself steady on my own, and walk on...but now I'm tired of having no one to hold on to. Tired of having to support myself. I can't stand this any longer; I wish to have someone by my side to comfort me, help me up and guide me on. But no one will ever do that for me. So I'm lost.

I do have someone particular in mind to shout out to, but he's...I have no right to ask him, 'cos...I dunno. He's not exactly my friend, but he can help me. He is capable of giving me what I need now. Even so, no matter how much he might care for me, I can't call on him...So then again. No one for me to turn to.

I'm always the one giving my all in a friendship. I'm always the one willing to make sacrifices just to make my friends smile. But I'm also always the one who receives nothing in return. I smile so that they can smile with me. But I've never smiled because they move me so. Never because I truly feel happy inside. It's always for others that I smile. Never for myself.

It's true. I'm a loner.

So. I almost forgot to blog again. I happened to have a few minutes at the computer now, so I'm blogging and also on MSN. But sheesh, no one's online. Bah.

K. Work's been how I like it to be. Really. The challenge of being in this line has started to sink in. Now whenever I think that I'm feeling like crap, I'd be glad enough to know that I've survived this far. But that's not enough to push me forward. What really keeps me going is the fact that I've people who are really concerned about me, and I can't bring myself to let them down, so I'll do my best to make them smile. TBF. I'm still sticking to that rule. Trust, Believe, Follow.

Well, peepz, if you've been reading up on my blog and feel that my job seems interesting, then you're most welcome to join me if you'd like to. K? I'd of course be more than happy to work with my friends!

Okie, okie. My neechan wants to use the comp now. Bye bye!