Ahh..I'm supposed to be sleeping now. No, I'm supposed to be sifting through my My Documents folder and back-up my files (my sis is sending my CPU to the doctor later today..)...eh..NO..I'm supposed to be doing my Primer 3 project now!!

Ahh..yes..Primer 3 has finally begun. I'm grouped with okay-okay people. All-girls team. Team name: designo'R
Task allocated to me: Human circulation around/at existing site; Best viewsheds of site.
Percentage completed: less than 50% (despite the time...no I refuse to say I'm sleepy..)
I realise there're some things I need to make clear about my scope of task 1st thing tomorrow. I'm a bit lost. A BIT only.

And...well..I may seem like I don't care, like I ignore, like I know nothing of the situation. But keep in mind, especially if you're close to me...I *always* know. And care. And be bothered about it. Ai can't possibly totally isolate you from Ai, Calvin. Ai will always be looking out for you. And Ai will always be there. (Oh. Haha. I seem to be enjoying playing the triple-pun on the word/name 'Ai'. Its fun and effective!)

Also...yesterday, it dawned on me...

The doors are still open. My brethren has come.

The light.

I see it.

And, I vow not to lose sight of it too easily ever again.

And, my brethren, don't cloud my aims just because I seem like I'm not making progress. Keep the doors open.

I wanna get there. And I hope you'll help me.
You're there, and I'll take advantage of that.
Don't close the doors on me. Never.

I haven't forgotten the taste of glory, when glory came pouring all over my overwhelmed soul, a long time ago. I yearn to have a taste of it again. It will be a long path, one that, despite the difficulties and darkness, I will still tread.

Just to get to that door.

And nothing shall stop me.


Okay. Cut that almost-incomprehensible thing..(but hey, I'm serious about it!)...ahh...well..I made a grave decision a few days ago. To spill something. I've even planned the date to do it. To the person. Whom I may hurt. Which is why I'm planning so carefully. So intricately. It may back-fire, yes, I always keep that a possibility..but as far as I can keep my control...the results will be devastating. Even my double entendre wouldn't believe I would be capable of such an act, with such an impact.

Oh yes..Ai am speaking in riddles...

Nyeeh...its so late, its early...I ought to go now...final note..:
Aishiteru yo, anata...Itsumo...Kitto.

Oyasumi na, minna-san!!