It hurts when I'm not with you.
It hurts when I see you cough or sneeze; when you're unwell.
It hurts when I see your injuries; when you're physically hurt.
It hurts when you forget something I've tried so hard to drill into your head.
It hurts when I find out you've sacrificed something just for my sake.
It hurts so much..

The memories that you leave me with, while we're apart from each other. So vivid...
The feelings that you leave me with...so strong..yet I cannot relive it when you're not here...

Call me mushy; I'm just being emotional for a bit. I'm still HUMAN you know...you can't expect me to be neutral to everything around me, do you? Especially when I'm in the peak of adolesence, in the heat of life yet learning to understand...understand myself and others; my feelings and thoughts especially.

Hmm..I'll be moving out of my house for a week while the toilets and windows are being renovated and changed. Will be in Woodlands at my sister's during this period. But I'll most probably be out this whole week; any cool plans open for invitation just gimme a call! ^^

I've so much to blog about, actually...but I guess some things are better off written down in a private diary than typed out and poted on a public blog. So Ai shall be lazy, haha. No revealing of secrets on asagawa-xanax!

Thinking about school life...I've been wondering how my friends take to school life. I'm certain different people take it differently. Like Joshua; my god he literally self-exterminated himself from school! But, like Michele, so serious, 'cos she keeps in mind that school will mean the future. Or Ryann..."see how, everything..if ok I might stay if not I think I not coming back next semester ah..." Or like me, struggling to pull it off, but always end up realising that I've never put in my full effort when I should've.

GAH...Its a sunny day...

Oh wells, I'm being nagged at again by my sis for blogging. Sigh~
Oh ya, the new blog design and template; hope you like it! :)

"How do you pick up the threads of an old life? How do you go on, when in your heart you begin to understand...there is no going back.
There are some things that time can not mend. Some hurts that go too deep, that have taken hold."

Now, getting all emotional, at the end of 'all things'...school's literally ended, holidays begun. Except that there're 2 tests next week. But otherwise...ALL'S DONE AND OVER WITH. Not exactly. Its *only* the end of Semester 1, the end of Primer 3. YES, the END OF PRIMER 3. The model, the journal, the presentation boards, *and* the presentation itself.

But hey, now that its done and over with (actually not. We've still got the exhibition to ready for ^^) I feel LOST!!! I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO!! Like, *suddenly*...my life has a vacuum...an empty space...and I have not the slightest idea how to fill up that empty space.

OH *by the way*..haha...I'm at Alia's house now, sitting next to her sis, who may be considered my new acquaintance! Whee! Haha. Landed here after the 2nd day of Primer 3 'critique session'. Seriously, EVERYONE is upset with today's crit. It was a silent crit for all 3 groups who were supposed to present today. I don't wanna go into the details; it still hurts. Glad Calvin didn't let his fists do the talking...bloodshed was well avoided. Mdm Zainon's blood, by the way.

SO...hoohaa...lemme see...the only action plan I have for my empty days is to draw 10 plants a day, starting from today, for my plant journal for PLT modul's submission. And maybe to study for PLT and ENSP tests. AND to clear up my house; its gonna be bombarded with Teambuild's contractors to be...upgraded under the MUP scheme. They're changing my windows and do god-knows-what to my toilets. And meanwhile, I shall stay over at my eldest sis's house...get to see Min-chan everyday for almost a week!!

Draw 10 plants a day huh...gotta start today. Anywaysd I hope I can meet up with someone, anyone, to go out tomorrow. No way am I gonna have no life.

I miss my 2 toils-and-troubles months with designo'R...

I miss Calvin...

I realise I miss the airport...

And I miss Calvin...

I miss working on my personal research and projects...

I miss Calvin too...

I miss my TKG choir...

I miss dear Calvin...
And did I say I miss Calvin so so much?

Yeah. See if I can fulfil my desires these holidays. By that, I mean covering for whatever I've been missing on these past 2 months.

Oh wells. Watch lotsa anime, and Jap movies, that I know. Meet up my ol' pals and teachers. And...I dunno what else. Bah.

First Xu Meng unknowingly called the paintbrush "shrub". How apt, we were making the model for our proposed site design; there're trees, ferns, shrubs, groundcovers. But it was her mistake la...her English not so good yet, but at least better than when I first knew her at the start of the semester.
Xu Meng: "Can you pass me the shrub?"
(Vivian and I turned around to see what she was pointing at. As far as the 2 of us knew, we hadn't even started on maing the shrubs for our model.)
Vivian and I: *blur-faced*
Xu Meng: "The shrub, pass me the shrub."
Vivian and I: *stare at her, then turn around to see what she was pointing at again*
(and all the both of us could see, sitting alone on my desk behind us, a paintbrush)
Vivian: "Uh..."
Me: *grab the paintbrush and passed it to Xu Meng* (restraining my laughter outburst)
Xu Meng: *stares at me while receiving the brush*
(apparently she didn't get a single thing about what she had just said)
Me: "Brush."
All: "..."
Me: "Its "brush", not "shrub"..."
*mwahahahaha*

Some time after Xu Meng turned "brush" into "shrub", I turned "paintbrush" into "toothbrush". Haha. What only. Maybe its my obsession lately about brushing my teeth only immediately before going to sleep. Go figure.
Me: "Xu Meng can you pass me your toothbrush?"
Xu Meng: *bewildered face* "TOOTHBRUSH??!!"

That was my highlight of the day, other than re-sorting my handphone image gallery, getting Gabriel Seah's number (yeah I'm in his fanclub. Bwahahaha!), pasting cute little moss onto the model as the shrub. Yes, shrub, not brush.

Shall I paste more brushes onto my model tomorrow? I ought to buy more shrubs for model painting...I'll grab my paintbrush from my mum's toilet before I go to sleep XD