OH MY GAH!!! (Yes, I got influenced by Alia~)

Guess what? My Elective Module, i.e. Introduction to Seamanship and Boating Theory (I call it ISBT for short), its like...lemme explain. Passing for this module is equivilant to passing the theory test for a Powered Pleasure Craft Driving Licence (PPCDL) Certificate. And, as an SP student who has passed this particular module, I'll only have to pay $140 to attend a 1-day practical course and test. If I get through this as well, I get a PPCDL Cert!

And, attend 2 more (1 theory and 1 practical) exams held by SMA, and I'll get a PPCD Licence for LIFE!! WHEE!!!

I didn't know my fleeting dream of being able to drive a Pleasure Craft just like my dad would actually be coming true in half a year's time! Looks like the anxious wait, frustration, and patience with the SAS server to get into this module pays off *really* well, heehee ^^

Well well, the 1st lesson of ISBT, it actually really was exciting, but thanks to the aircon, the stuffy afternoon, the fasting month, the dim room where the lecture was held, I fell asleep for 20 minutes. Missed out on some important Nautical terms though. Haha. Was so tired~

The 1st lesson of Critical Reasoning Skills (CRS), however, was a cute experience. We got introduced to a new lecturer, and got pulled to the library to be taught on how to do research using the ELISER (SP's library database server). Haha.

Oh yes, yesterday...I met up with Jerusha and Raidah!! Its the 1st time we both saw Raidah in her Innova JC uniform. We met up in the evening at Orchard to break fast together. Its been such a long time since the 3 of us got together; I almost forgot how easily I could just fit in and be myself totally with the 2 of them. And laugh like nobody's business over Raidah's naturally humourous manner-of-speech. Haha. Had an extremely great time with them. Hopefully we will meet up again soon! :)

Primer 4...the site, I still think, is so disgusting; it puts me off to do anything about it. So put pff I don't wanna do my part of the work for Site Analysis. Its so disgusting!! SP Staff Ctr is such a DISGUSTING place!! EWWW!!

Meanwhile, I'm getting very pissed off with my life at home. Oh well, what's new anyway~

What's up with my workspaces being so super cold?!! Even my new workspace is freezing up my arteries.

Primer 4 has begun, and for the 1st quarter, I've grouped myself with WaiMeng, Calvin, Fadilah and Iman. Just for the analysis, then we're splitting to individual work for the rest of the project. I really don't like the new site that we're given; the SP Staff Centre is so disgustingly ugly. Urgh~

Anyways, good news being a cheerful effect to sad times, I managed to get into Introduction to Seamanship and Boating Theory afterall. The 1st class of the module will be tomorrow; I can't wait!

I went to see Calvin's Sport Chanbara training again yesterday. Before that, I remember getting kinda you-can-call-it reprimanded. And, anyways, yesterday was the 2nd day of Ramadhan, and the 1st time this month that I chose to break fast outside, and also the 2nd time I left my spectacles behind. This time its at the payphones at Dover Stn. Darn forgetful me.

Okie, Aishah's hands are really too cold to type properly; gonna go off now. Studio's already quite empty anyway. Jya~

Hmm...its only been 3 days since my last post, but the past 2 days have been really eventful for me. Its strange how much I've discovered about myself in just these 2 fateful days, and in so many ways.

Anyways, I'm still listening intently to Towa no Hana, Ai Yori Aoshi's opening song.

Its only a few days more to go before school reopens. And the fasting month too. And exactly a week to go to sit for my very 1st lecture of my General Elective Module; I got in for Introduction to Astro-Navigation. No fair. My Main Registration slot was the 3rd slot on the 2nd day, and my 1st choice got snapped up, fully booked. But I'm still hoping during the Open Registrantion someone would bow out of my Intro to Seamanship and Boating Theory module so I could take his/her place. I really want that module. Anyhow if I can't get in for my 1st choice then my 2nd isn't so bad afterall; I've always liked and wanted to study the stars anyway :)

Oooh I forget, Primer 4 is comng up! And, DLA Yr 1 has a new lecturer for PLT (Plant and Landscape Technology) module starting Sem 2! I wonder how this new lec will be like...

My sis is gonna skip school today. Said she's not ready for her Stats lecture today (haven't got her notes and ppt slides ready). I never skip school just because I'm not ready for class. 'Cos anyway, I just browse through the ppt online before attending the lecture; no note-taking or anything.

Oh, now that I've only just stretched my leg to put in on the comp desk, I'm reminded: I've a new computer desk! Together with a new TV/DVD player-recorder/VCD player/amplifier cabinet. And my parents got a new wardrobe too, 2-in-1 type. My sis's and my own wardrobes aren't getting changed though :'( haha. 'zokays. Mine is still functionable anyway.

I can't wait if there's gonna be a trip to Yong Peng(, M'sia) again! Travelling is always fun and welcome and appreciated and sought-after by us DLA kids :D

I realise (while typing this post) I've been very influenced by Calvin's way of speech. Almost typed it like how he would say it, then (in my head, it goes like) "NO way, Aishah! Keep your style! KEEP your personality!! Don't get drifted by him or you won't be special anymore!!" Haha.

I'm not an optimist, neither am I a pessimistic person. I'm just, simply, realistic. I guess that explains why I no longer get too shocked at whatever that happens in my life, to me or to anyone I know. Kinda makes me an expressionless kid, but I've figured its better than getting too hurt should the situation turn for the worse, 'cos I've got it all expected anyway. At this age, what do you date for? To have fun? For the experience? Just to show off that you've someone? To learn? To release lust? To make someone happy? To 'see how things go'? Or are you so *sure* its the ultimate reason there's this thing called "dating" in the first place: To find someone suitable to spend the rest of your life blissfully married to? I'm being a realist; there's no avoiding certain things unless by strong will and true pure love you can turn things around. Maybe its because I'm afraid to get hurt? Could it be, being a realist just as an excuse not to be too hurt if the time comes? Maybe, maybe not. It is afterall, difficult to enjoy life when you're being a realist, 'cos you'll always be aware of the possibilities of the outcome of whatever the situation. So, like Nicole said, "When it happens, it happens."

Now why is my comp screen showing lines when there're no incoming calls or messages into my phone??

Anyways, yesterday while reviewing my life for a bit, I figured out how I got to where I am now, what I am now. For a 17-yr-old (to-be), I guess I'm quite 'uneventful', if I were to be compared to my clique classmates of 4e9 '05 TKGS. But in comparison to my cool-although-almost-stoic classmates (I consider myself to be in that category too =P), I suppose I'm quite off-the-norm. Not that it matters. Knowing your achievements and failures always mkaes you think of these kinda stuff, doesn't it?

But I'll always be glad for the experiences I've got with me. They mould me, and I'm not about to regret having made myself the way I am :)

It was rare, but yeah I watched Ai Yori Aoshi yesterday. And...today I'm stark obsessed listening to its opening song, Towa no Hana.

Here's the translated version of Towa no Hana (Ai Yori Aoshi op) [taken from Animelyrics.com]:

The seasons move on, leaving
The scent of the flowers blooming pale
The rain has stopped too, clouds in the sky
Are blown gently by the blue breeze

Both today and tomorrow
Alongside the times we walk
Our trembling thoughts will be there
Unchanging

Forever Forever
It blooms but never dies
The pounding of my heart never ceases
More than anyone, More than anyone
I gaze at you
With this feeling that never ends

That day, when we met
How many times in the world
has a miracle like this happened?
Whom shall I thank?

Ah, I know your future
will be perfect for me
There will be nights when I can't say it
Although I may cry

Forever Forever
It may pass, but it will not fade
In the wind, under the sky, I wait
If I believe If I believe
Then your smile

Forever Forever
It blooms but never dies
The pounding of my heart never ceases
More than anyone, More than anyone
I gaze at you
With this never ending feeling

And the tune! Oh so sweet! Its not kind of diabetic-sweet, but sweet-romance kind of sweet. Know what I mean? The lyrics are incredibly...sweet. Goodness me. I really just don't know what other word there could be to describe this song.

Ah, today..just now, actually...my sis told me to carry the huge box of rags and place it on top of my wardrobe, where it was from originally. So I lifted that thing, stood on the edge of my bed (my bed is less than 50cm away from my wardrobe), and tried lifting it higher, high enough for me to push it over the top of that 7-yr-old wardrobe of mine. BUT, I haven't consumed a single thing since Friday evening. I simply had no energy. No matter how hard I try to push it higher, I just couldn't reach. Which is ridiculous. I was the one to bring down that same box from that same place last week. Initially I started laughing at myself; like, "This is incredulous. I don't have enough stored energy left to even just lift this thing?"

Then I just kept on trying. But I just couldn't reach it. Still laughing, I told my sis, "I just can't do it..". She laughed and kept telling me that I could reach it. But I couldn't. While (unendlessly still)laughing, I just suddenly broke down. As if my brain and heart and soul all told me I'm just too weak, and all 3 can't accept that fact. I just let go of the box from where I was standing (on my bed), dropped my body onto my bed and just cried into my mattress, even then still, still laughing.

Something in me just snapped at that point when after I said that I couldn't do it. I just stopped trying, although still laughing, I simply broke down. Why is it that simple things like this can make me cry? I kept on laughing at myself, thinking its ridiculous that I could be that weak, and I cried, knowing that I *am* indeed that weak, but I can't accept it.

Its just so...confusing.

O.o I've just found this cool thingy about this cool webbie thingy called Technorati-or-something-like-that thingy. Got to know about it from the blog thingy of the maker of this blogskin thingy =3

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Now, hither in my mind, lies the ultimate questionnaire of a single thought..

Where. is. my. semestral. results.

I've been waiting since yesterday afternoon at 1300hrs, the time they (mySAS) informed us that Sch of BE courses' results will be released. But, nothing. Then I realised (actually, my tomodachi, Nicole, pointed it out to me) that for "all other courses" (I didn't know DLA was an outcast course) the results will be out today at 0830hrs. So I woke up at 0820hrs, got to the computer, switched it on, be patient with the incessant modem disconnection...to no avail. My most-awaited-for Semester 1 results are still not out yet.

So, again...Where. the. F*ck. Is. My. Semestral. Results???!!

I am so annoyed. So annoyed, I could just storm to school, T3A41, and demand the release of my class's results from the School of Built Environment Office. But I shall be patient and restraint myself. Wait till tonight. Or maybe, by good chance, till the 19th this month. If latest, by 19th September 2006, I catch not even a whiff of my results, I really will go to the Office to demand for it.

Ok. Chill. I musn't be mad. Today's supposed to be a happy day...I'll finally get to see (not to mention talk, hold, hug, gaze, etc.) Calvin-kun again, after so long. HahAhaHaha~ Deprivation *can* make me light-headed, after all =3

Its only 0918hrs as I'm typing now. Oh yes, I forget, I'm not gonna change my blogskin/template this month. You'll see a new one by the beginning of October, though. Hopefully. Haha. We'll see if I'm too busy.

I just realised my birthday this year will possibly fall on the last week of Primer 4 project, just before the Crit Session. Go figure. No celebration la, lyk dat...
Nvm. As long as I can celebrate others' birthdays and make them happy, I'll be happy too! ^^ And, oh, I've actually decided to take Introduction to Seamanship and Boating Theory as my GEM for next semester, but my mother might not allow it...I don't see any reason why she shouldn't let me, though. If there's anything I'm unclear about, I could always just ask my dad; he's been a sea captain for ages, I tell ya. And it'll be fun and informative anyway. So why not? ^^

Ai am hungry. Very. Wokies lets go check if there's anything for me to devour..

AHHH!!! My shoulders are ACHING as if MADNESS rules my MUSCLES or something!! I don't even know the CAUSE of the ache! And its only on the right shoulder..god, I ABHORE uneven treatment!!

Then I've BLISTERS! BLISTERS on BOTH my FEET!! Thanks to wearing my eldest sister's heels...(I'd thought I lost mine, but later got to know my beloved, cream, comfortable and non-blister-causing pair of U.R.S. & inc. high heels are accidentally left behind at my eldest sister's house from the last time I stayed over...which wasn't too long ago...) Stupid, (one of the few) poorly-designed, Charles and Keith heels. I say "one of the few" 'cos I'm actually quite a fan of that brand, only that CERTAIN designs aren't too feet-friendly.

And generally, MY LEGS!! BOTH legs are aching MADLY!! 'Cos I was wearing my second sister's ladies' sandals...the straps CUT into my SKIN and FORCED me to put all my weight to my HEELS which also meant stressing my LOWER LEG muscles...

Sigh~

And the last thing that's ACHING like its trying to make me DIE or something...is my heart muscle. Calvin's gone for an almost-week-long overnight camp at school, and I'll only get to see him on Thursday. That's why sometimes I hate to live it up too much, 'cos when its suddenly taken away from you, you'll miss it more than if you hadn't done it at all. My heart is aching, like, anytime, I'll expect it to start breaking~

So anyways, it was DAMN fun to attend the 2 PDPs (Personal Devt Prog); Social Ettiquette and Personal Skincare. Social Ettiquette class was great; I FINALLY got to learn the basics of social introduction, something I've never been clear about. And made new friends too! Expanded my social circle. T'was SO fun. AND, the Personal Skincare class, I couldn't be better elated than knowing that it'll be held by Shiseido! I mean, SHISEIDO, the skincare brand that my mum has been using for DECADES. And the doorgift was just AWESOME...a whole miniature set of facial routine products...and even a $10 Shiseido voucher!!

And by the way I met up with an ol' pal from sec sch, Woan Ni! My choir pal, my distress detector. Haha. That day was fun: I spent some time with Calvin, sent him off for job interview, went for short window shopping, fetched him from interview, met up with WN, sent her for job interview (2 diff places hor), went off for short browsing at Bras Basah, fetched her from interview, went for lunch together, went to Sunshine Plaza (oh my beloved anime and manga paradise!)(also dropped my a piano shop to play around with keys), went to Akihabara shop at Bugis Junc., sent WN off at MRT, sent Calvin off at his aunt's house's doorstep, explored a deserted way of getting back to Redhill MRT, got home!

I never get lost, only explore~ haha. (NO, I am NOT in DENIAL..)

So anyways, thinking of going to school library to borrow books tomorrow. Maybe can catch a glimpse of some of my friends there, for all you know :)

It has been a long 2 weeks...moved to my eldest sister's place, took 2 modules' tests, went to Bintan with the noobs of Dept of Architecture of SP (i.e. the 1st years of DLA, DARCH and DID), celebrated Teachers' Day at TKPS, interspaced with many little meet-ups with Calvin, haha.

I'm way too tired and lazy to elaborate on just about anything. My arms have been carrying a 5-litre tin of paint each day, yesterday and today, and my legs carried my body (together with the paint tin) for almost 500 metres on both occasions. My legs are kinda used to being not-so-well treated, but my arms are finally getting a good workout. Especially since at Bintan Lagoon Resort I insisted on going swimming, so my limbs feel well-used. Even today I had to shift *every single thing* from my HUGE bookshelf out into the room.

Oh by the way my room's lilac in colour now. Got painted yesterday. Whee~

My dad is busy painting...I'm just busy shifting everything off the walls. Haha.

Tomorrow I shall be going to Sentosa!!! Its been a very very very long time sice I last went there for holiday...its been a couple of years, when my sis had yet to be married to my bro-in-law..which means at least 5 years ago. Yup. Last holiday trip there was at least 5 years ago. And hopefully tomorrow will be well-spent and eventful, for my memories to be nice and pretty~

WTH am I talking about. I dunno. GAH..

I miss Alia. Haha. She's rubbed off some influence on me. Nice kid...I just can't picture her as a few days younger than me (we're both December people!!); with that wit, she simply seems way more mature than I am. Haha.

Okie dokie. Papa needs me to move furnitures again. He's done with the living room and needs to paint the walls of the hall now...that is where I'm sitting, typing...

See ya guys~ Have fun for the hols. As for the JC kids, mug hard. Promos seem like a difficult but fun kind of exams to me! =3