Since a certain someone actually verbally complained outright to me that I haven't been blogging and didn't even inform of my absence, I shall now make a grand comeback...
...by announcing...
that I might be having the great honour of going through an exclusive interview with the Sch of BE and/or DLA in-charges. This assumption is due to the fact that I have effectively flunked my final project so badly that I might not pull through Year 1 in Dipl. Landscape Arch.
Cool huh.
Anyways, I'm pretty numb to this. My project presentation is set for tomorrow, but I'll be giving a silent presentation 'cos I'd come late for the 1st day of critique session. Okay, a less-than-40% completed submission, no presentation, no allowance to defend design and concept...spells B-L-O-O-M, doesn't it? Bloom in doom. Good going, Aishah. I brought this upon myself, I know. I might fail this year, I might not (that's if my 1st 3 projects can actually effectively pull up the failing grades for this one). I'm really pretty numb. I think the shock and confusion will only kick in when its for sure whether I'm failing or moving on for certain. Otherwise, I'm numb. Not positive, not negative, to both as well as neither paths.
Any case, actually I'm proud of my concept and design. Its sensible and not too cheesy. Then again, I didn't put in much effort to this. Yes I'm blatantly admitting that I was simply a lazy b*tch. I could've done well, but noooo...I just
had to experience a shameful downfall. Maybe I felt like getting slapped. I don't know. I'm so ashamed of my submission and myself that I'm somewhat more happy than upset that I'll be giving a silent presentation.
As for other parts of my life, hmm...say I've grown ever closer to Calvin-kun? That one I'm zettai certain. And...today's his sister's birthday. Oh ya, I've offered to be an informal tutor to his sister, Cheryl-chan, the kiddo. She's taking her 'O's this year, and since she's somewhat set on getting into TP's Dipl. Moving Images (which was my 2nd choice, by the way), I'm gonna help her get there. Not much; just checking on her that she understands her school work, able to do well for tests and exams, provide assistance anytime she needs it (like, sure, call me in the middle of the night just to ask me how to solve a mathematical problem. I'll get up and help ya over da phone. Really.) I'm not asking for anything in return, because the satisfaction of helping someone I know get through to her dreams would be more than enough. And, when she makes it there to TP, she'll be living the life I would've lead if I hadn't gotten in to DLA.
Happy birthday, kiddo! ^^ sorry I haven't got any pressies for you, though. I really cannot afford it, what with 5 other birthdays in Jan, 2 out of 5 extremely important (my eldest sister's and her daughter's [Min-chan! XD] Min-chan turns 2 years-old on 22nd Jan)
I'm right now in the school library. I'd just ended my elective module class just now (and following through an impromptu personal invitation to visit my captain's staff room), and had intended to salvage whatever of my project in the studio and better it if I can before tomorrow's silent presentation, BUT THE STUDIOS ARE CLOSED!! Staff Rally @ the Convention Ctr, I figure. Damn. So I headed to the library to do my ppt, but I don't even know what I need to put into the ppt (even my precious little note-taking book and pencil case), and therefore here I am, blogging. While listening to Utada Hikaru on shuffle and repeat mode on Calvin's Poddie (my term for iPod).
Man, I'm tired of being stagnant. Gonna go try start on my ppt. Wish me luck~
