Ahaha. Okay. Actually I've nothing in mind to blog about, but I guess its no excuse since I haven't been blogging for...half a month. Let's do a head start; Things in my mind right now:
1. Need to find new blogskin and change asagawa-xanax (finally, after 3 months)
2. I miss my anata
3. Wanna go clean up his room
4. Don't feel like visiting the doctor to get my ear fixed today
5. Hope Nokia can really get my phone fixed (incl. the faults I forgot to inform them)
6. I Hate My Constantly-Disconnecting-Hell-Of-An-ADSL!

Oh, so yesterday, I went to Wheelock Place to get my 8-month old N70 fixed at the Nokia Care Ctr. N70 is known to be a faulty-by-default model. Haha. Well, my problems with my phone was 1st, the port wasn't working anymore (where you plug in your headset or the wire to connect to a USB port). This problem I forgot to tell the CSO while at the counter, so I doubt they'll know of the fault and get in fixed. The 2nd thing was that my Multimedia Gallery couldn't access to my MMC card anymore. The MMC is fine 'cos you can still read its contents from 'File Manager', but the Gallery can't seem to detect and display the MMC contents. 3rdly, my phones exhibits no alert/ringing/beep/vibration whatsoever when there's a new message in my inbox. No nothing. Not even on the main page, it no longer shows the "1 new message" notice, neither the icon display to show an un-opened sms. The only I'll know there's a new message is when I go to the inbox itself and realise that there's a new message.

It has annoyed me enough. So I've sent it to get it fixed. It seems that they're gonna upgrade my software as a solution to all my phone problems. I hope it'll work. I'm now temporarily using my mother's Motorola phone, until I can collect my N70 back tomorrow.

Anyways, I was thinking about how different people prioritise things differently. The topic was regarding respecting others around you and respecting yourself, versus doing what you wanna do, what you think is most important in your life. I'm convinced by my derivation that people who do not understand or know how or why to respect others are simply as such due to their twisted priorities, that the world revolves around them and them only ("Its all about you, isn't it? Its always about you. You, you, YOU. And no one else. Huh? Isn't it?!") That no one matters more than themselves only. That everyone else is there just to serve as 'supporting actors' in the story of their lives. Because the priority is you yourself, you see no need to respect others. So long as you get what you like and what you want, everything else doesn't matter. Not even the people who actually love and care for you.

Look at it otherwise. That the world DOES NOT revolve around you. That YOU are the one revolving the world. That you are NOT the most important thing there is to yourself, that there is something or someone you love more than yourself. By default, because there are other things that are important to you, you will naturally respect and appreciate and love that important something or someone. Because its so very important to you, you don't want to waste it away, you'll regret it if it were to leave your life. Thus you will learn to respect it, so that it will be part of your life for as long as it can be. In terms of the important thing being a someone, means to respect him/her, put yourself in a lower status and importance than him/her, in best hopes that he/she will also love and respect you and thus remain with you. Because, afterall, why would anyone want to stay with someone who doesn't respect him/her?

This respect thing, with regard to social relationships, is also derived from my belief that Relationship = Respect + Responsibility + Romance, in that order. Thus if you want to have and keep your lover or even family and friends, you must 1st and foremost put yourself humbly behind them, and respect them. Next, be responsible for whatever happens to the both of you, or even to just them. Romance will take different forms in different types of relationships. For friends, its the love and concern that comes from being a friend. For family, its the love for your siblings/parents, the love for the people who have brought you into this world and brought you up, seen you through your years. For romantic relationships, its unneeded explanation; the pure and beautiful love for your partner. Romance, responsibility and respect are the 3 main things I believe is *required* to sustain a good relationship.

So, basically, I conclude that if you truly love something or someone more than yourself, you will naturally respect him/her/it. And it works vice-versa; if you don't respect someone/something, it means that you don't think its important enough to be respected, not as important as you are. That kind of thinking (the latter), simply means that you're highly self-centred, very possibly highly egocentric.

I really do love you, Calvin. I'll respect you, even if you don't understand why you need to respect anyone at all, not even me. Its fine. I'll still love you, no less. But I'll try to make you understand that you are not what the world is all about. There are cultures, people, ideas around you that are even more important than you yourself. But I'll always respect you. Always.

And so, the end of today's post. Quite long, eh? And I thought I had nothing to blog about. Haha. This always happens. Well, I don't know when I'll be blogging next, but see you around!