Sometimes when I'm alone at home, I feel a pang of.. loneliness. I wish you were close by, for me to run to and hug, or to hold close as we watch tv, or to talk to over tea or meals, or sing to while I'm doing the house chores. I wish we were living together. Legally, of course.

This thought and wish has been crossing my mind almost everyday, for many weeks of late. What will be our future, for even as much as you may say that you want to stay, will you really, in the end? I can't leave what I have for you, because you are the most important thing in my life, but only second to religion. Will you ever make the decision to not just embrace me, but what I embrace as well? I will not force, only hope. I will not give hints or subliminal messages, only pray.

Even as I know it seems so bleak, I choose to ignore, and live through the best with you, now. If we end up being together till death, then I would've lived my whole life with love and fulfillment. If you would leave someday, then at the very least, I have lived a good few years of my life experiencing what I know can never be overpowered by any other experience I have yet to go through. Times with you would always be the best, and I will cherish them, whether with or without you.

I only hope and pray, that those times last to the last of our days.