I haven't cried in a long while. I cried today. Why does he lie? Its so obvious from his smses and behaviour that he's still angry with me, why does he say he isn't? Why does he not want to talk to me about the problem that surfaced 2 days ago? How long am I supposed to wait? I can wait, but if he loves me won't he consider that he won't want me to be worried over anything on my first day of work tomorrow? Why is he doing this? Why can't we just meet and talk.

I am not perfect. I'm not even good. You can't expect me to be psychic or all-knowing, and "act accordingly" when the relationship goes into limbo when you're acting like that. There is no guidebook that I can follow, nor are you leaving me any hints on what I could do next to pamper you. And don't tell me to think about it on my own; a relationship is that: relation. We need to work together to work this out, not me on my own trying to work us out. And I'm leaving openings everywhere to let/make that happen, to have us communicate but its like me making calls that lead to a pre-recorded voice message. You're not responding. You don't even want to receive. I can't work us out on my own. I can't.

And I was reading my past posts. If you ever read this, nata, read this one too: April 2007 336 days Because I still feel this way for you.